hey guys guess what?I went to the dance....and it was great!I actually felt like maybe just maybe i could stop a few people and just make them stare...well,that didn't really happen...well,ok fine a few heads turned but all i got as in compliments was "oh wow you look good andy"....and even from my date...speedy,which was the one i wanted to wow the most...all he said was "yeah you look good"....GOOD?GOOD IS ALL I GET?I SPENT 2 HOURS PREPARING MAKE-UP,THE DRESS THE SHOES THE JEWLERY THE HAIR STYLE HAIR CUT...EVERYTHING AND GOOD?*breathes deeply* goosfrabba...thnaks meg...but dude...and than if that wasn't enough with him...me and speedy didnt freak dance..actually creepy enough he danced with mike...but w/e but when we slow danced it was prolly the best times of the dance...i felt like it wasn't my life for a second...when i was slow dancing with him all my problems just dissapeared...it was the feeling like i got when i cut..but better i felt more happy not as relieved just...pure happiness.....wish he knew that though.There was one time i thought he was having the same feeling...when i could feel his head on mine.But i bet i was wrong...i was the only one having those feelings...as usual,the only thing he said to me when we were dancing was "your hair is all sticky cuz your hairspray" What is that a joke?UGH tlak 'bout moment busters man come on!I was in the middle of a dream and he goes and makes me feels embarrassed....ugh...*slpas herself*...what was i thinking anyway...right?I mean...when i am truely happy soemhtign always goes wrong..and if speedy even had a clue....that i felt like that...he'd prolly drift away again...you know he once told me "nothing  could make me like you less,you can only go up"...yeah well am i far enough up man?I love him as a friend but after that moment aftre moment...i felt somehting...but that something was um...how they say...one way...it was all me...i dont even think he had enough fun to want to go again with me...oh how i screw things up...but besides that whole scene i had fun...especailly since i tried being nice to mike's date...and she still glared at me the whole time...i feel bad for mike....when that chcik danced with him she had one arm around his neck not even touhing and the other arm by HER side...messed...she doesn't see how lucky she is to have a guy like mike...but how come all the nice guys go for chciks that aren't good enough for them?Guys like mike deserve a girl that'll treat them right and be a great not decent but great g/f to them....i've come to understand maybe that's why god won't let me have speedy...cuz i'm not good enough...prolly...anyway on a brighter note my day sucked today cuz i went to church and meg wasn't there...i didn't get to say what i had said over and over agian in my head to speedy,russel still looked said and he is heart-broken over another chcik that's stupid for not seeing russel for the guy he is...and to make matters worse my family ahtes me again..love y'all peace out...layta...

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