Hey hey hey,it's NEW YEAR'S!!!! and guess where i'm at?Home!.....yep....cuz all my "friends" would rather be places without me than TRY and comfort me....yup...my mom just cussed me out for aboput an hour and where's speedy?oh yeah that's right i haven't heard from him cuz of his stupid freaking job!And megan,yeah my best friend she is over at her Boyfriends house cuz he is just so much more important then soemone who supposedly  got her closer to god and made her give up cutting and made her give up cussing...yeah....but it's kewl,on account that the world doesnt revolve around me yes i'm very much aware but ya know what?I only have two close friends...and they don't even want to help me  out,tell yeah the truth....found yet another razor...while i was lookin' for duct tape in my dad's garage....yeah but no one cares about andy's problems nah no way?who's andy?Oh wait wasn't she that girl tellin us about a bunch of crap at youth one nigyht?....yeah but who cares...she prolly made it all up right?WRONG!I DIDN'T...I WENT THROUGH SOME CREEPY ASS SHIT!Things that made the devil happy as hell,but no one cares....cuz i'm yesterday's trash...i'm alone....i'm the wicked one that everyone must scorn and hate....and you know what i'm sorry god for cussing,i'm sorry for even thinking fo going back to cutitng cuz ya know what you stupid people...it's all about god?and we always seem to forget that....but ya know what else?i didnt....for once i didnt feel alone cuz i thought of him....but then megan sees me online and i start talking to her...try to tell her whats up with me.....but she has to run to her lil' b/f to chill with him for the night....yeah meg it's kewl....cuz when your at your lil' boy's house...i'm sitting here...alone....and an another hour about to be yelled at again...but dont feel bad meg...your not my babysitter...but you are my friend.....and you made a choice tonite....a coice that i'm not gonna let you forget "andy,would you ever ditch me for duncan?"-"nah,or any other guy for that matter,what about you...would you ditch me?"-"no way...never...."......never eh?megan you member that lil' chat?yeah well,i kept my end...but tonite....you broke yours chalupa....or whatever you cna call yourself now....we'll be bound cuz a god...but we anit bound by friendship....oh and mike?if you ever get the brains to read this....at youth group....on the 29th.....your little girlfriend wouldnt shut up...and i was having some serious probs...and i was talking with my father....my god! and all i could hear was that stupid brat and her sister...and you!....i told them to be quiet...i didnt say it mean i didnt do noghting....and her sister called me a bitch along with a dirty little look form kirisa....but you too obsessed to even stick up for one of your so called friends.....but you know what...chicks pass mike...and friends are there forever....so when you get dumped.....or you wise up and dump her...you'll see....that you were never there for me...your so called friend...i thought of you as a best friend for a long ass time.....but you always hurt me....and let me down...but you know what....i still love you......cuz i have to......cuz god wants me too.....but if i weren't a god chick.....you'd be gone...as i wish you would be....and even though you treat me like crap....i forgive you...whether you wnat to admit it or not....oh and speedy?yo whenever you find it in your bus little schedule for an 'ol friend'....she really needs a.s.a.p.....that is if you still care....

......you wanna know some last crap?....i'm out....late....